Trying to find answers!!!……Its all me at Grey cells ……. Unfinished thoughts

Woman???……Woooed by man

Posted in Love, Thoughts, Woman by nagaje on January 30, 2007

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair……… The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes, Because that is the doorway to her heart, The place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her  soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, The passion that she shows.

The beauty of a woman with time, only grows.

 I really do not know who phrased the sentence but am speechless………. but how many of us can really explore and tap the real potential of that true love ???

All of us are too good in exploiting….. I have always felt women are  most weak and strongest at any given point of life …..its only when,  a certain behaviour takes the stand totally depends on the situation you put her in …

You are very happy whn you get the undivided love……. but fail to cater to her needs … Loads of mails go around the wolrd  ‘facts about men’  put all those commitmnets they can not make and declare this is what we r made of!!!!

How easy it is …for a man to use woman … and My question is… are WE  letting them ??!!!… Are we allowing them to expliot us???  What I fail to understand is commiting and trusting someone is the roadmap to self destruction!??!… Why will thr b any commitment or Y would anybody trust!!

You trust someone.. you try and do everything…. Bootlicking..too!!! Just to see an happy face….a smile … a small bunch of flowers!!… an outing??…. a shopping spree… an good family!!…….

What more would a girl in love ask for from her man???  …  An Undying..Fidelity!!!! 

What else commitments mean??? Now this is whr the hitch starts .. Infidelity becomes of any virile man..rgt?? It starts like …………… just a friend!! ….. a collegue!! … a good neighbour…Ooops… list gets infinite………rgt??….

I have read this…

‘ Every man wants a woman to appeal to his better side, his nobler instincts and his higher nature — and another woman to help him forget them ‘

How TRUE!! 😦

Are women  so vulnerable?? ……………Just a stupid thought process!!! I do not hav answers for them too!!!

Friend …….an alter Ego!!

Posted in Friend !!!, That's me, Thoughts by nagaje on January 24, 2007

Friend in need is a friend Indeed ‘  Oldest saying rgt???? I just do not understand Y a friend has to b measured in times of need !!!! 

Friend for me is an entity …. who is an alter ego of you …. Friend in whole must b you yourself!! I mean .. ‘ You r what you are when U r alone !! rgt ?? ‘……. I feel U should b able to see yourself in a friend!!

Now not as a mirror but the whole of you…I just happened to read…….‘Friend uderstands what you do not say ‘ bcoz he is you!!!!

You know wht with a friend you can b naked I do not mean the physical nudity here… naked is what U r whn u r not in front of anybody…. Whn U r all by yourself !! The TRUE U  ….. All of us do portray different images of ourselves depending on lot of factors…..depending on person u r with … situation… stress… whole lot of emotional binding….

We tend to b manipulative always in many ways … and believe me its really a bliss whn u really do not have to hide behind mask and bring out the real you thts a great feel good factor!!

With a real buddy U  can always b YOU !! Do whatever you want and he is all thr for you unchanged! Friend is NOT a need … but that primal want….without which you r lost out in this mega universe…

Tell Me something  you do not  …  meaning you can not literally atleast  Cheat yourself rgt???  There you go… you r true to yourself .. is being a friend to self … First friend anybody can get is Oneself!! B’coz at the end of any day you can not b manipulative to youself Unless you are Sick!!!!

See… Thats wht I mean whn I say your true friend has to b an alter ego!!!! Not being able to Manipulate!!!……. My piece of little advice to anyone who has a true friend with whom you can b all yourself.. Please please maintain…. nurture…. that precious relationship as you are one of those rare blessed kind !!! Dont raise brows and ask me If a friend is myself ……Y  the need for nourishment!! We all do take good care of ourselves rgt??? So Y not care this Gem you happen to stumble upon …..on your longest journey of life to make life a pleasant path to tread on… and to b with you whatever you do!!

I do some kind of post scripting to this blog!! An Homage to my friends……….

 I have this Lil’ friend !! [ Younger,  is all I meant] who allows me wet her shoulder ….Blow my trumpet … wake her up in the wee hrs of morn whn she is trying to catch few winks… she works in shifts!! just to tell a stupid sad story of mine… drag her from shop to shop till we r exhausted shopping!! …… Eat only ice-cream instead of lunch…..Sit on the curb of the road crying.. and talking endlessly.. Scream at her 4 no reason…. Buy her whatever I lik and make her get twinkles in the eye..List is endless…Yaar ..BUT I LOVE HER…. She is great friend!!

And then thr is this Big Friend of mine …Older to me …. who keeps .. encouraging me …realising my own worth..telling me I CAN… sort of things .. listen to my cries… showing me greater heights that I can measure up to…. laughing with me… talk to me on my journey home [Thanks to Mobile though!!]…. Trying to give me that most sought after space in the relationship……….admonish whn I go wrong!! Giving me those small pep talks…..I do enjoy!! FRIENDS!!

To you Guys … I owe a lot!!!

Help less !!

Posted in life, That's me, Thoughts by nagaje on January 23, 2007

I always feel … so help less whn I look around .. and think …….Can a Rang De Basanti happen every day??? in India…[ I came out of the Movie with lot of tears streaked on my face…]

Y R V not able to do anything???? and thr is always this urge to do something.. tht makes a remarkable change….not elsewhere but in my life ……and if each of us start this thought process …….  may b Yes change b’comes a Constant.

Its  really like those droplets of water that makes a mighty ocean……change is needed everywhere..What we fail to understand is that we WE  need to change but we spend all our energies to make sure we try to change others…which itself is an herculean task and is endless… If at any point of time we do not achiieve that  goal  !! ……… its the stress load

I wake up some day thinking…… If I do not step on others path,  I am doing best .. in the least..But some days I am haunted by the thought of  literally digging my nails into those dirty minds..may b I am saving another victim like me…

Then I think I should ignore all those beastly creatures and think of doing something good to my environment ..I would get content. Aim is not to harm anyone but to try and uplift atleast someone….in one’s lifetime…rgt??

Now the biggest doubt is would I b able to do something on these lines and can I do something???? Questions… Questions…… Questions……??? where  r the answers???

Trying to find them!!!! ?? 😦

All I Do is Dream!

Posted in Dreams, Thoughts by nagaje on January 16, 2007

Ever been to Dreamland??? [Now who hasn’t?? ]

 If U say NO !! Either you are not existing…. or you r a big liar….Or u just dont comprehend what I am saying..

Dreams are a greater vent to human thought process….Dreaming should b elixir of life only then can u think of having greater achievements!!

Some shrinks say ..Dream is the window to  inner cravings …they try and analise Y someone is dreaming somethin……..But I feel dream is way to reaching top….Visionaries!! r great dreamers…I always hav felt the day one stops dreaming they DIE…atleast not literally….

 People dreamt greatest Impossibilities….and  the world has seen them happen….

Nelson madela ..Martin Luther king…..

Close home…..Gandhi…….dreamt  Nehru , Ambedkar, Tata, Ambani…..they made things happen…

I have dreamt loads of things too… we all do……but difference lies in the fact tht we don’t stick to them , come what may!!!

 We r not passinate about our dreams……Dream without passion is lik mirage!! Its there just on horizon……

I say ‘DREAM BIG &  DREAM ALWAYS’   Dream  what that small inner voice says and there you go… leaping  forward , scaling greater heights ..setting newer zenith… and of course blind to all hindrances on way……….

I have biggest dream… to make people not to remember me…….. b’coz  I want them never forget me….

[ So when U do not forget whats there to remember?????!!  ]

Hmmm…………..DREAM AWAY!!!…..

PS: This is one dream …………read on………..

http://www.tamilnation.org/ideology/lutherking1.htm

Things I enjoy..

Posted in Child in me, That's me by nagaje on January 15, 2007

Ha ha  ha …

Now U  r eager rgt…

this is another monster ….. No doubt.

I love rain… riding my bike in the rain, can make me sweetest person.. though I hav shed lots of tears in the rain…..

I love flowers….Fresh!!.. U know wht I love them . but it finally gives me a sick feeling… to remember they r cut….. may b they could hav lived longer unplucked….

I love empty feeling nature can give U …. hav you ever sat on a sea-shore alone…  gone walking into the woods???U’ll surely know wht I mean….

 I love kids laughter / smile in their sleep ..[They say … Kids would smile whn they r playing with Angels]

I love cleaning….. Now don’t call me Doormat/ Maid… It just makes u feel great….U should b lik me to njoy  🙂  … U must know..Place 4 everything..’n everything in its place!!

I love Cooking….Hmmmm….I can sure make people lick fingers!! Hey ..No dirty thinking..I said after food!!

I love white… anything ….grey hairs too… not a worry!!!

I love Books…. Not all though.. Not just a man’s best friend !! I can say I find a friend in a  book.

I love small gestures of kindness……

I love kids gurgling…..

I love the peace whn I talk to god!![ Boss I do not pray]……..

DO I  love shopping??? [ hmmm all women do!!]

I love open spaces!! Lots of fresh air …loads of nature no one to bother u….

I love Mothers!!! [ Just not Mine] …they say ….God knew he could not b everywhere  so he created Mothers!!! but for me……. he made a Father!!!!

I love being an individual…. Thts the root cause of all this!!! 😉

I admire talent !!! I can smell one whn it is close by!!

I love people with assertiveness…..U know again close to “walk the Talk”….

I LOVE MYSELF……. Who else should???

God.. Duty calls!!! catch  u later… I mean add up further… Simply..selfish???? what say???

Money!!

Posted in Money!, Thoughts by nagaje on January 15, 2007

Hey hav you ever heard of people say ” Money isn’t everything”!!!! Hmmm I too hav heard.. but I categorise people who say that depending on what is money to them!!

Some squander ‘Baap ka’/ inherited!! ,

Some can’t make money and say it.. you know ??  Sour grapes..!!

Some get easy money Thanks to Uncle SAM!! 

Some sweat it out…. EARN every penny… lavishly spend it until they dont know what next.. and thn make the statement… boss … hats off to thm.. its then I feel they talk sense… 🙂

Know something???

I saw this Movie ‘Samsara’… It says…

How can one renounce anything until you own it !!’  How true!! ..I feel this holds pretty good for money factor of lif too…

So I feel you should make money get the feel of crisp green notes and enjoy exchanging …….You see they say Money attracts money ….So make money &  spend money is the way to make more money……Money stashed is one that rots…

Power combined with money… A potent combination with a wise man…I am talking of a single person…funny?? nopes … its terrific. its a rare find … but not ‘Imaginary’

Do u lik Money ?????  Tell me !! I am yet to get to the answer myself.. 😉

Love??

Posted in Love by nagaje on January 15, 2007

You love someone.???.. you literally exist with them… no matter how far off you r physically separated on this earth….But guess what ?

Love needs lots of nurturing to b done to keep it live ‘n kicking…People I hav observed get into that slumber once they find their love they take for granted ….Y do we forget love is a human need to live and universal fact is  ‘change is constant’ your love also needs to be refreshed

I would suggest Say  thanks to appreciate small things .. and please feel it …do not Fake it … coz love has this Sixth sense..  Love can catch you soon ..I swear I would know If something is wrong…  I could catch a lie better than ‘Polygrahphic test’ and believe me instantly at that…..Thats becoz u love

So guys out there…….. stop faking if you r not in love ….just say it… Ironically its the easiest thing to do than carry the baggage of need to design new manipulative tricks… Huh??? what say???

Routine

Posted in Thoughts by nagaje on January 15, 2007

Y is this feeling of ” not doing rgt thing.??”  😦 …………… haunts me all over again..each day…I always feel I can do better but still lost out as to what is to be done.. I am at loss……….. its like you are still searching for the end of tunnel and you clearly hav lost the way you came in  …

Unable to quench the thirst for that unknown …. I am not sure what exactly I want to do but I am sure as a hell whatever is my routine is not IT….

There is this urge ….undying fire …….burning desire …..call it anything but answers the same void …

I see people everyday talk about their routine and their plans for tomorrow at  place called  ‘office….!!!!’I am surprised at their contentment … Boss they can B happy talking till they can bore others to death about the dresses…. collegues….everything around them…… and I am not sure if they r happy……!!! Y am I not born lik that ???

There is this lion’s hunger increasing each day and I am at loss…What gives me contentment…..??? hell No!!  I am not ready to fall in love with whatsoever I am doing… Not in few light years atleast …..Bracing against such a storm inside!!

 No worries ….I keep trying my hands on new things Until I try and settle with some thing…..When??!! Now thats what remains unanswered so far rgt??

Dairy!!

Posted in Dairy, Thoughts by nagaje on January 12, 2007

God am I getting hooked on to this……You know something ..writing dairy give s a feel of talking to a friend … unleashing your thoughts..and of course you are making way for bigger!!![ I am not sure though  🙂 ] thinking..

 Mind is lik memory chip you erase some data U get space for new storage…. I am not a Psychology goof … but I can believe when somebody says whts on their mind they r kinda relieved..

Remember the sigh of relief you had when U poured out your tension to your love….[Now I meant mama , papa, sis , bro , pal…. whosoever it is]…. thts wht I call  ‘erase some data’ ……….. b’coz u unknowingly allowed some other party to take weight off ur mind. Now u have another clean page to draft few more things thts how a human being can put more thought process on wheels…………..

Dairy is a virtual friend ….U bet I hav fallen in love with it….

Love

Posted in Love, That's me, Thoughts by nagaje on January 12, 2007

Can you believe…. I am not very Romantic…………. 🙂 But yup I do Love ……. LOVE

Now Thts  something I really do not xpect u to understand …U see understanding me is a biggest challenges I hav on road to my lif.. now can  I dare U to  ???

I always hav felt Love is within U…………. ..U really do not love anybody…Dont raise ur brows ……….Dont’ hit me….Thts Me I said …………………….remember………. thts me!!  all along……

I feel one should FIRST love oneself…… tell u Y??

Hey simple logic …………… yaar……Unless U love urself… how on the earth can u xpect anyone else to love u at all?????..Now I guess U r trying to loosen those taut muscles …..on ur face… I am rgt!!!  Correct???

Its bcoz u find someone loves U as U love yourself that U like them… / Love them infact. Am I being tooo different I can not help it… …I hav told u already……………. I AM

You love some one bcoz u see urself atleast a part of ur self in them…[ Remind u again.. U love yourself rgt??? ;-)] And I guess ur love deepens as u find more of ur traits / if you can relate more to this person….and this can happen to anyone.

Another important aspect of love.. TRUST… believe me a guy who can not trust himself can never b in Love.. Love and trust go hand in hand………..its only co-existence for them..never alone atleast frm love nest when U speak….

Love is Bliss………….bliss is wht u see on a mother’s face when she eyes her love bundle..[KID …Boss].. I think love makes the world exist….

Thr was this saying I hav heard……about  Love is freedom…..Never hold fast on to your love…… set it free if it  is  urs itz always thr else it’s just not meant for u .. ..

You know Love is lik holding water in your hands …………….tighten your hold it sqeezes out immediately through the smallest crevices of your hold…and nothings is left thr forr u to see .. but u hold it free and open carefully in your outstreched plam .. you can carefully mange not to spill a drop…….. 🙂  rgt na???

keep loving thts the best boost…for life.

Loads of love …

P.S: I may edit this blog whn I get time bcoz love is just not this much… Its Soooooooooooooo much more…