Trying to find answers!!!……Its all me at Grey cells ……. Unfinished thoughts

Can I do anything that I don’t repeat history in my life

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on September 2, 2012

This silence is deafening… I feel muted!! Not being able to answer myself … Can I give up my life to for someone’s happiness???

 I did it once.. what happened?? except for the feeling of being ‘used’… do anyone care?? Its me sulking… scared again with life….is there any remedy??

I wish I had the energy to live life all over again!!I feel dirty… abused… Life is not fair…never fair… Wish I had answers… 

Once bitten twice shy!!

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on August 13, 2012

LIFE!!Have you achieved anything??

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on August 7, 2012

When 40 yrs of life completed!! I realised.. I did not do anything….Anything at all…..It’s SAD rgt??

Irony… I am not able to laugh or cry….. just tears roll out as though they have Nothing else to cry anymore for!!


Cheeeers 😦


Kabhie .. kabhie … mere dil…..

Posted in Dreams, Expectation, life by nagaje on October 27, 2011

not sure… wish I was in different frame of mind…..

samajh mein nahi aata zindagi kya hai… Maksad kya hai…. dil karta hai… wish i was a simple girl with normal life

Are the fears like mostly because you dont know what you want?

you compromise because you dont know what else?

Simply can not throw what i have because i don’t have else



ASK me!!

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on May 26, 2011

Wanna know whats a punching bag 🙂 ask me.


Frankie And Johnny – Some dialogues I liked …. from the movie…

Posted in Movie through my eyes, Thoughts, Woman by nagaje on April 24, 2011

Confession time……………..  On my first day, I stole some of your tips.

I know. But you put it back the next day.

I was broke. I was really broke.

I’m really glad things are working out for you, you know.


– I wish you all the best.

– Thanks.

You’re not stopping me, I’m stopping me. I love you.

But I’m so scared. So scared you are going to retreat back. You know …..that place …. you’re so comfortable with, that place where nobody can find you.

That’s why I’m coming on so strong.


My wife remarried, she lives in the suburbs.. Beautiful house. Nice. I could never have provided them with anything like that.

I got there, there were my kids, playing on the lawn. I didn’t get out of the car, you know. I just couldn’t…

They looked so happy and all. They got so big. Looked like somebody else’s kids.

I just drove away.

It’s like I lost them, that’s how I feel.

You haven’t lost them, you’re just not ready.

If I ever get another pet, it’ll be a dog. Something you can hold.

I want to kill myself when I think I’m the only person in the world and that part of me that feels that way is trapped inside this body that only bumps into other bodies without connecting to another person in the world trapped inside of them.


We have to connect. We just have to.

Some of us have problems. Some of us have sorrows.

People like you’re so busy telling us what you want you don’t notice the rest of us who aren’t exactly singing Yankee Doodle Dandy.

They made love and for maybe one whole night, they forgot the million things that make people think “I don’t love this person, “I don’t like this person, I don’t know this…”


Instead, it was perfect and they were perfect and that’s all there was to know about it.

Only now, she’s beginning to forget all that and maybe he’ll forget it, too.

I am. I’m afraid.

I’m afraid to be alone, I’m afraid not to be alone.

I’m afraid of what I am, what I’m not,

What I might become, what I might never become.

I don’t want to stay at my job for the rest of my life but I…I’m afraid to leave.


And I’m just tired, you know, I’m just so tired of being afraid.


Chanakya Vani…..

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on January 2, 2011

“Learn from the mistakes of others… you can’t live long enough to make them all yourselves!! ”

“A person should not be too honest. Straight trees are cut first and Honest people are screwed first.”

“Even if a snake is not poisonous, it should pretend to be venomous.”

“The biggest guru-mantra is: Never share your secrets with anybody. It will destroy you.”

“There is some self-interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self-interests. This is a bitter truth.”

” Before you start some work, always ask yourself three questions – Why am I doing it?, what the results might be? and will I be successful?. Only when you think deeply and find satisfactory answers to these questions, go ahead.”

“As soon as the fear approaches near, attack and destroy it.”

“The world’s biggest power is the youth and beauty of a woman.”

“Once you start a working on something, don’t be afraid of failure and don’t abandon it. People who work sincerely are the happiest.”

“The fragrance of flowers spreads only in the direction of the wind. But the goodness of a person spreads in all direction.”

“God is not present in idols. Your feelings are your god. The soul is your temple.”

“A man is great by deeds, not by birth.”

“Never make friends with people who are above or below you in status. Such friendships will never give you any happiness.”

“Treat your kid like a darling for the first five years. For the next five years, scold them. By the time they turn sixteen, treat them like a friend. Your grown up children are your best friends.”

“Books are as useful to a stupid person as a mirror is useful to a blind person.”

“Education is the best friend. An educated person is respected everywhere. Education beats the beauty and the youth.”

🙂  Loads  to learn…


Walk the talk?? – said a friend

Posted in Uncategorized by nagaje on December 16, 2010


The gap between what you say and what you do, between what you promise and what you deliver, is like a drain in the road. The drain is where water escapes, just as your power will seep away if there is a difference between your words and your actions.

Ask yourself everyday, were your thoughts, words and actions aligned? Ask someone else what they saw in you too. Feedback is the food of all positive change.


The Secret of Happiness – Said a friend

Posted in Belief, Great thinking, Insecurity!, Introspection, life, Love, me, Thoughts by nagaje on October 6, 2010

The Secret of Happiness The secret of happiness is to be free of fear. Fear is like a toxin that runs through much of our thinking. It feeds on insecurity, feeling of loss, loneliness, inadequacy and attachment.

You are loveable and loving. Accept this as Truth. Appreciate and care for yourself – truly, deeply, intensely, in a way that reflects your real value. Then you will automatically have the same regards for all other living beings and things.


Mutton Biryani In Pictures

Posted in Food by nagaje on September 13, 2010

My way of making mutton briyani at home.  Get some mutton and clean thoroughly.

Use below ingredients and marinate for an hour.

Use a cooker and fry some raw spices like cardamom, cinnamon, shahjeera, biryani leaf,Star anise, Onion, Tomato, Curdetc. Make sure mutton is cooked by trying to split the piece using spoon.

Fry some onions in ghee, Keeps aside. Fry some cashews and dry grapes as toppings for your biryani.

Now take a large curry pan. Layer your partly cooked biryani rice or long grain rice with mutton or leave mutton at bottom and add some water.  Cover. Let rice cook directly with mutton.

Have it with raitha. Or simple eat it straight. Use ghee instead of oil for taste. Enjoy. Relish some good food.